sch was ok ytd n today.. but well, i wasnt really fine.. anyway it was a long day ytd, everythings kinda the same like the past 2 tues, except tat ytd during dops lecture i wasnt paying attention, was spent roaming in my own world.. thought abt lots of stuffs durin tat 2hrs.. u can say i'm stoning n also emoing as well.. lunch was spent eating at al-ameen, thx to kw again for driving us out for lunch.. after tat went back for sct lab.. i was kinda nervous for the lab.. bcuz i'm afraid tat i'll break the wafer.. but thank god i didnt n tat was gd.. n also i'm glad tat my mind was almost totally focused n was attentive.. but i guess it only lasted for the four pt probe part, cuz bascially i was quite blur at the ellipsometer part.. but well, i still did learnt smth.. kinda amazed at myself being able to pay like 95% attention.. today was kinda ok as well i guess.. juz sianz of hearing ppl ask me hw come today i dress liddat.. i noe i had nv ever dress liddat to sch, but well couldnt i like have a change? n i'm like stoning n tinkin alot today.. super blur today too.. n a few ppl asked me y am i so quiet today y i'm nt very high today, did i ate too much "medicine"? well, ppl do have times where they r in the low mood rite.. so well dun b so wah abt it.. but anyway still thx to those who had asked.. =) i have been tinkin alot alot these 2 days.. n well i dunno if i'm tinkin too much.. bcuz most of the things tat appeared in my mind r like towards the negative side.. i have no idea y i'll tink tat way, but some things juz made me have tat kind of a feeling tat kind of a tinkin which is nt the first time tat i felt tat.. but perhaps is juz me being too sensitive in a way.. i juz hope tat my tinkin n feeling is wrong.. somehow i feel so lost all of a sudden.. 也许真的是我想太多了.. hope u r feeling better alrd.. n regarding the misunderstanding matter, nt sure if u r angry abt it nt but i hope u r nt.. i'm really very sorry abt it.. when i got to noe abt it, i was quite shocked.. i thought back n i tink tat i was really stupid to believe tat dumb email tat time.. if only i had continue to ignore those rubbishy emails, it wouldnt have happened.. somehow it's solely my fault.. bcuz if i hadnt open the email n believed it, she wouldnt had also received it n accidentally sent it to u too, n then this thing wouldnt have happened.. though i didnt really talk to u, but i noe tat the thing had actually affected u causing u to feel sad.. n i'm truly sorry abt tat.. juz bcuz of my stupidity n dumbness, to have cause hurt to ppl.. but well i'm grateful tat u cared so much abt it n clarified it with us.. well, i will nv ever do tat to u, regardless of anything yea,i promise.. =)
