was actually in quite a gd n high mood today.. but all was being destroyed juz nw.. n makes me feeling emo.. alright so i'm juz an xtra afterall.. fine loh.. i'll rmb this tat u have said.. shouldn't have bought the cake for u on ur bdae tat time.. u dun even appreciate it at all... u din even eat a single slice of it.. n let the cake gone to waste.. wasted my efforts.. fine, shouldnt have wasted the money to buy a cake for u.. so i'm juz an xtra.. n tat sentence of urs, happened to trigger alot of my thoughts... i've not been having dis kinda mood for quite long time alrd, n nw u causes my tat mood to b back.. n causes all those negative thoughts of mine to come back too.. since to u i'm juz an extra in the family, den mayb if 1 day i went missing or smth bad happen to me n i wont b appearing anymore, tat would b gd to alot of pplz? perhaps yea.. i'm juz so sad n angry abt it.. n i actually cried so much abt it secretly juz nw.. so long since i have ever cried.. i mean cried with sadness.. i guess u nv ever noe tat sometimes tat words tat came out of ur mouth juz hurts badly.. can u ever tink b4 u speak? i'm juz so sad n angry lah.. haiz, sometimes i juz envy others so much.. alright dun bother to ask me y, i juz wanna vent all of it out in here n i'll feel better after tat n with a gd nite slp.. guess i shall slp, no mood to blog..
