haiz, well today my mood wasnt really very gd yea, kinda a bit moody, n feeling down too i guess.. anyway, i was ard 15mins late for maths lecture dis morning, cuz i went outta hse quite late at almost 9.25 n i knew i'm gonna b late but juz couldnt care abt it yea... so anyway things r as usual, 2 hrs of maths lecture, n then was break.. sometimes i felt tat i'm juz an xtra perhaps... shant elaborate, dun tink anyone would noe how i feel... wadever lah.. sighz.. den eltech lecture, wasnt listening, basically was in my own world yea.. but wad's diff was dis 2 days, i'm so called normal lah i mean from e view of my classmates n all, bcuz i wasnt crazy n laughing.. or rather i tink i'm not ok or not normal in some sense yea.. mayb tat's juz the me all along, perhaps i'm juz always pretending like i'm very cheerful or rather tryin hard to be cheerful n thus make myself laugh at nth at all, which pplz felt tat i'm insane lah.. after eltech lecture, was autocad class, did 2 exercises den can go off le.. gonna hab an autocad test nxt fri.. sighz... den i slacked ard in sch, went to the library den went to take bus 61 to bb to meet hamtaro.. was so stunned to see her wear till like tat lah.. people wear until so feminine leh, can u imagine, omg, lolx, she wore skirt loh, can u believe? hahaz... hey gal, muz wear like dis more mah den will mi dao lots of guys.. ok,well, today after school, actually is go for dinner with jazreel n jianjin yea, but in e end was cancelled le yea.. so i decided to find pplz pei me mah, cuz i told my mama i'm goin out le loh, n plus somemore i dun feel like goin hm mah.. so meet hamtaro.. n she really makes my day yea, brighten up my mood yea... =) we went to causeway pt, had ur dinner dere at kfc, den shopped ard, n 8 plus she gonna go off le, so took train tgt while she alighted at yew tee n me at lot 1, cuz it's still early, so i slowly strolled ard in lot 1 loh... sometimes shopping alone is gd too, spend time alone, mind spinning yea.. anyway after tat i rushed hm to catch e last episode of love at zero degrees celcius as basically i've got nth to do, n nth to walk ard n see le, i'm sick of lot 1 liao.. boring place yea, always go dere till bored le.. =X ok, so watched finished e last episode lah, love the ending yea, yixin with weixiang.. juz felt tat they r very compatible n so on lah... the show is indeed a nice show yea... so touching at some parts lah, n weixiang is so sweet loh.. omg... juz how i wish i could find a guy like him like tat lah so sweet loh, but guess it's impossible de lah... cuz, i noe tat nobody would likes me one loh.. wondering juz when will i meet my mr right? juz realised my post is very emo today.. wadever yea, my mood today is up n down... =X haiz.. guess i'm turning back to the old me le, how? i dun wanna break my promises.. i wanna stay cheerful, but dis yr it's hard to b cheerful loh in poly, life is juz so diff n i simply hated it at times or infact most of the times, but i noe i've put in a lot of effort n attempts in making myself stay happy n cheerful, but well i dunno y but sometimes i juz feel tat i sux, juz wad's e matter with me yea, perhaps i'm really becoming back to the same old me sometime back last yr again.. tat day tues, played bball with eunice n i asked her whether did i changed n she said i did loh, in ways like becoming beri quiet le, wonder juz where did e noisy cheerful n happy me in e past went to le.. n ya exams r coming real soon, even w/o me realizing it by e time it arrives, but i haven even started to mugged though my msn nick now is like always put muz start mugging hard liao, but infact i've not even touched on my revision lah... it's like no motivation loh n no mood to do so... wad shld i do? who can motivate me? but well, i noe tat i muz n wanna do well, i dun wanna let anyone down even myself... =X wad to do?
