well, nth much for me to blog abt.. thurs was juz like every thurs, had eltech lecture, eltech tutorial, engmech tutorial.. always doin e same thingy ya.. got back my engmech quiz, cher said alot ppl got zero, n i seriously feel tat i'm surely gonna be one of them, cuz i seriously dunno how 2 do n anhyhow scribbled something on it loh.. n guess wad i got 3/20, though it's a fail grade, but i'm kinda happy with it le.. something diff abt tat day was tat we went SIM for lunch... n tat i saw lotsa my frens tat day... saw, esther(rgt 2/7 classmate), saw bird bird(foc oannes 3), qixiang(foc oannes 3), abigail(foc oannes 3), junwei(foc oannes 3), huiyi (my sl durin ee camp) juz feel quite happy bumping into them... =) fri, also nth much, it's juz the same lah.. had maths lecture, eltech lecture n autocad.. wad's diff is only autocad lesson we had quiz on isometric n orthographic drawings, do finish can go off le.. den i also saw a lot of frens today, indeed very happy.. i saw my pri sch classmate hanlee, saw sec sch mate jaime, saw abigail n qixiang again..=) haiz, well, but now i'm feelin tat i'm really am now goin back to my old pessimistic self again, i juz cant helped it i guess... n i also din want tat to happen de n also i'm now also back to e unhappy me again... but haiz... how can i b happy leh now, when i'm always facing a bunch of annoying n irritating peepz... who r juz somehow so childish n brainless i suppose... i dun care if any of my current classmate is readin dis anot... i juz feel like expressing out how i feel, n i have e right to do so here... ahh... imagine u r being so called disturb by pplz in ur class like almost everyday.. wadever u do, they also will have things to say u de, i din mean everyone of them in my class but most of those pplz whom i hanged out with frm my class de... if a few times only it's ok, but if like everyday n always, it's juz so annoying n irritating lah... i guess, no matter how patience a person is they will still get kinda pissed off n annoyed n irritated by tat ok.. it sux big time loh... everyone got their own limits de ok, so dun ever go overboard loh... if the person din say anything or wad, doesnt mean tat they enjoyed it or liked it, sometimes they juz dun wanna say out juz to prevent any misunderstandings or preventing from pplz getting angry or hurt each other or wad loh... but u pplz who does all those stupid things shld use ur brain to tink loh, if u dun have brain den use ur butt to do so... u may liked it, but plz do spare a thought at times too for others, they might not liked or enjoyed it like u do... haiz.. guess tat's it barhx.. haiz... is it i'm e one with prob or wad? perhaps mayb i juz sux tat's y? does i really clique with them? sighz.. mayb i should juz b alone... i mayb should juz isolate myself or wad barhx, like last time? sighz.. guess it's better to juz remain quiet at all times... guess mayb i should juz b alone, isolate myself n so on, perhaps i really juz sux lah.. perhaps bcuz they juz dislike me.. perhaps i juz really don clique with them.. perhaps its really juz me? haiz... i hate myself... ahh.... i hate poly life!!! i cant help but feel so unhappy each day at sch, i'm juz always tryin to pretend as though i'm happy n so on, but am i really feelin in tat way? sighz... will i b able to get used to poly life n loved it like wad ms lai told me? sighz... i'm sorry if i break my promise... i juz cant helped it... i'm fallin sick now already, headachy n keep feelin cold at times when others r not... perhaps i'm juz gonna die soon, n leave dis world? i hope so... den i'd not need to always facing all these pplz... it sux totally... perhaps i shall juz b a mute in sch barhx.. *gone*
haiz.. how i missed 2/7 n 4/10... how i missed all my frens in rgt, at least they noe how to cheer me up... how i missed my teachers, esp ms lai, at least i'd have someone to tok to.. sighz... i juz missed e past... if only, i could stay in sec sch forever or e time would juz stop dere forever.. juz who understands me n how i felt? guess perhaps there's juz no one barhx...
