well, after juz now my aunt called me n kind of like chat wib me, den she asked me wad course am i goin to, n when i told her, her reaction wad like huh, y u take tat course, tat 1 is guys do 1 loh... n then always this kinda reaction or remarks or wad so ever thing tat it is, tat is being make by pplz whom i noe de, will lead me into pondering abt whether have i made e right choice? sighz... she asked me y would i want to choose tat course n i juz tell her i dunno cuz i dunno how 2 explain lah... den she ask me whether i noe wad i want to do not.. den i told her tat i wanna b a teacher, she was like huh u sure want to b a teacher ar, b teacher not gd 1 leh, u will teach till vomit blood 1 sia.. n thus, always i dunno y tat e comments or wadever it is tat pplz gave me would always made me pause n give e thing a second thought but it always happens after a decision is made... so there's no use afterall.. sighz, so have i made e right choice of choosing dis course? have i? somehow i really dunno, after wad pplz always say upon hearin e course tat i chose.. it would always caused me to b unhappy n also confused... haiz... if only i could juz b wad i want to b without having to go to poly all tat.. yea, but there would b no such things in dis world.. sighz... so how? now, i began to ask myself a lot of qns... will i regret takin dis course? will i b happy in this course? did i made e right choice? will i b able to succeed? haiz... lots n lots of qns fall on me now, n i simply dun have e ans to most of it... how? sighz... y is it tat always during this period of e year tat i'm always becomin unhappy? went to take a look at those posts tat i made last yr, n well durin this period of time last yr, i was beginning to bcum unhappy... i dun want e same thing to happen again... i want to b a happy person... i dun want to break promise... sighz..
