well... today went to sch early in e mornin as usual... den erm, first period was erm hist, waited outside e com lab fer cher to cum, he took such a long time to cum sia, de4n was so damn hot loh n also perspririn like siao liddat, so was like waitin fer him to quickly cum den can go in com lab hab aircon loh... but who noes he like 8am den cum, after seok teng clled him n asked him where he is.. den go com lab, i wanted to play games de, den he keep cumin over den asked me to do the ws de 1st qn so do loh, it's kinda stupid lah he tell me wad to use the answer given in e answer key as the answer loh, by rephrasing it n make it longer.. diaoz sia.. so i do loh.. cuz he keep cumin over.. den let him mark loh, n den i could finally use the com in peace..lolx.. den after tat was eng, was asked to do ws.. den after 2 periods of eng was erm 1 period of cme, went down to the d&t rm mah, as earlier when i was waitin fer mr ras to cum, i asked mr kamar abt my electronics fer my artefact de thingy loh, cusz he say the electronics man is cumin today to help me make mah.. den told him i got a free period b4 recess cuz mdm poh absent, n so he asked me to go n look fer him durin tat time loh.. so durin cme i went to find him, n he tell me tat guy has bring my things back n do le n he will b back tink tml barhx.. ok, so went back to class.. no relief teacher came in sia.. den at ard 10.30 got pplz frm my class, went down fer early recess loh, since no teacher in class.. den i was playin cheat wib ah ma dey all again loh.. den went down fer recess, den found pplz to pei me eat, tat person is ah ma, cuz i saw her mah, den today yuna neber cum mah, so can ask her pei me.. den eat halfway, got ppl fight in the canteen loh, den down dere watched loh.. den after recess was erm ss, was given ws loh, den cher tok bout the qns all tat loh.. den after 2 periods of ss, was erm 2 periods of maths... first period mr tan was down there tokin n tokin loh.. after tat did papers again loh.. den wah, i beri angry loh, wib a bastard in my class loh.. he mouth beri big loh, i tok to teacehr got ask him to comment or wad ar, keep on shoot me.. kao eh... xiang dao jiu fed up.. den beri angry loh, den i scold him loh, den he keep on like gettin on my nerves loh.. den i tell him tok so much fer wad got ask fer his yi jian izzit, den i say tok some more i smack u ar.. den he keep like so called threaten or wad lah, say cum lah cum lah, wah lau a, u tink i don dare beat u izzit, stupid asshole, bastard yi ge.. grr, den beri pissed off loh, den since he like tink i scare of him or wad lah don dare beat him ar, den i say i throw broom at u den u noe ar, den he ask me cum lah cum lah, den i really went to take the broom in class de loh, realli feel like wacking him wib it, n throwin at him, but i din cuz i noe sometimes pplz r superstitious mah, but i use the broom like kinda sweep his table loh.. den he down there say wad bu gan da wo jiu jiang lah, wah lau, i'm realii beri pissed loh, den i put back the broom n came back n keep hittin him wib all my might loh, den cher saw, but din say wad or do wad.. den i was realli realli damn damn pissed wib him loh, den i say tink i don dare beat u izzit, xiao xin i throw table or chair at u ar, is not like i neber throw tables or chairs before loh, den i dunno he got say anything or wad loh, cant remember, but i noe i juz threw my chair hard on the floor, n cher looked at me, stunned, n i juz went outta class liddat.. i went to sit at outside the door dere, a corner, i was down dere cryin, i dunno y the hell i cry, but i juz noe tat i'm beri beri beri damn pissed off wib him loh.. den yonghan came out n ask me not to cry, gave me tissues, den yuxiang also came out, ask me to relax n say i muz control my temper lah.. wah, tinkin bout my temper, i realli hab many things runnin through my mind loh..i was like kinda being struck upon hearin this loh: u muz control ur temper lah.. was tinkin, hasn't my temper alreadi chanegd alot le? haben i not been throwin my temper or habin tat bad temper anymore le wad? or is it tat my bad temper has been back again tat i din noe abt it? i realli dunno.. i'm realli clueless regardin tat loh.. sighz.. den after sch, went down to canteen , saw eunice, angie n her fren... den i tink eunice could see tat i hab cried n asked me wad happen, even though i faked a smile to angie when she say hi to me.. n i broke out in tears again.. guess they were shocked to see me like tis barhx.. i realli dunno, i walked away, actually want to walk to the toilet but decided not to, so walked back wantin to find eunice, den angie was still dere, n she gave me tissue, i tink she realli hab a shocked loh, hope i din make her worried bout me.. well, i juz want to say to all those pplz, whom came to comfort me, those whom i gave a shocked to, sorry fer tat.. i'm realli sorry if i did make any1 of u worried bout me or wad, n well juz dun need to worry bout me as i'll b fine de.. thx fer all of u all de concerns.. den well, went to eat lunch, ate wib eunice, den we played wib shamita, brought her to the library.. den well, after tat went up to thir\d lvl wib eunice, went to her class wib her too, as she want to get her bottle.. den ard 4+ she left n went to tution wib her fren.. den i want to the library saw no 1 i noe de is in dere le, so went to take bus to lot 1, bought some papers to make cards.. den went to buy bubble tea n den jiu went hm loh... bathed le, n came to blog.. sighz, i realli tink there's realli something wrong wib me loh... juz y does my mood chanegs so quick, i realli wonder y? sighz.. i regretted cursing tat "bastard" as i shldnt curse pplz mah, but guess it's juz all bcuz of the anger inside me.. well, shldnt hab mind wad pplz say, as it's their mouths not mine n i cant control them frm sayin wad dey wants to say.. it's juz my fault lah, who ask i care bout n mind abt wad pplz hab to say... all the anger tat i hab today, all the 'violent' acts i did today was juz all my fault lah... everything shall juz b my fault... it's my fault loh, bcuz of my temper? since, there's pplz tellin me i shld control my temper lah, so it's juz my bad temper tat causes this, all my fault as i hab such a stupid bad temper? all my fault, mayb bcuz i'm petty? wadever, juz let it all b my fault den.. sighz... everything is juz my fault my fault.. my fault, cuz the great changes i hab in me as compared to the past? i simply juz sux... stupid me... stupid temper.. stupid mood... everything is juz so stupid.. arghh... juz hate myself..
*pissed* *hates myself* *stupid me* *stupid mood* *stupid temper* *everything is juz so stupid* *i juz sux* *everything is juz so sux* *i hates myself* *o lvls arrivin in 79 more days* *gtg mugged fer tml's chem mock exam*
