hmmm,today, mornin, dad sent me to sch... den well, erm hab assembly in class, den down dere do nth fer awhile loh in class, den goten the bk, today in history loh n the souveneir which is a torchlight loh.. den after tat, erm went down to the parade square fer e parade ceremony, den ahh, e lil gal shamita, came towards me sia, den she sit on my lap loh.. den the mr tan go take camera n take a photo of me n shamita sittin on my lap loh.. so diaoz sia, den my classmates dey all say later he go put e photo in e sch magazine ar.. ee, i dun1... =( den after tat, went up to hall loh, den wah sit first row loh, directly infront of e steps n i sittin directly in e middle loh, the shamita went up wib me sia, den she dunno y suddenly want go down den i bring her go down find her daddy loh, dat time the programme haben start yet loh... den wah, the performance hai hao lah, but i juz dunno y whenever i saw m&D perform, i will got a weird weird feelin loh, like feel like joinin them liddat loh.. den i tink today the choir sing like neber sing liddat loh, cuz we din even noe they got perform n sing loh, cuz they were standin together at the side of the hall loh, so it kinda seems no diff as to whether they performin n singin anot loh...so diaoz rite, so disappointed, cuz i thought they will stand at the steps dere mah, den i can ka jiao pplz... hahaz, i beri bad.. den after e performance, went find mdm zhao, asked her abt the compo writing thingy loh... den dun feel like goin de loh, but in e end still went, juz anyhow write... chose the bao zhang du hou gan n write, den cher say finish writing can go liao, den i quickly write loh anyhow write, guess was e 2nd person who finished barhx.. den went to fins angie dey all loh... went lot 1, took neoprint, togetehr wib angie, pz & hy... ck was dere too... din noe they will b goin as well sia.. haiz..den, well i dun quite like the neoprint taken loh, cuz dun tink i look nice loh, e other pplz mayb yes lah fer them as mayb they look nice... but to me, i dun like n i dun tink i look nice loh... noe y, cuz though u see me smiling in the neoprint, is not the real smile of mine.. the smile u saw in my neoprint tat is taken today, was actually a forced 1... haben been smiling much nowadays... n also, i dunno y now i dun like to take photos tat much le, n even if i take i seldom smile now, even if i did it will all b actually a fake smile, which i forced it out de.. so mayb u pplz out there who neos me, might tink i'm beri fake den, but wadever... den after took neoprint, angie went back hm.. so i'm left to b wib them... feelin beri uncomfortable n weird being wib them.. as i hab alreadi decided not to b wib them le... but well, today is juz coincidental barhx.. so we hab lunch together at let's eat... den saw a lot of our sch teachers in there, teachers like, ms lai,ms yeo,ms loh,mr liew, the lamer teacher, den i tink is ms suhahdah, den also got the other 3 new teachers, guess is ms ong n the other 1 a female de dunno wad name lah, but juz noe she's kinda new, who came together wib ms ong de, n also another male de teacher.. den also saw mr chia, sec 1 pe teacher, he still remembered us, n i tot he forget my name le, but he still remembers sia..-_-" say wad, i so talkative of cuz remember lah, diaoz, mayb tat's e past, i'm no longer like e past now... all things hab chanegd le now.. den i ate honey dew chicken noodle, so the 4 of us, 3 eat noodle de, 2 eat rice de.. den i finished eatin first, feel kinda bored n weird sticking wib them... so decided to go down buy bubble tea, den shun bian help them buy... den saw the mr liew n the other 2 male teachers loh, the 2 which i mentioned earlier, lame 1 n the other dunno who... den tok to mr liew loh, cuz i queueing up mah, den he waitin fer e 2 teacher mah... den after tat they came down find me, den walk round lot 1, den went west mall shop, den went bugis shop.. reached hm was like five... diaoz, e donkey which i hanged on my hp de, i lost it sia, guessed it dropped as the hook seems to b like opened, guess it went lose, after a lil boy when i was shopping at bugis village, pulled it n i got a shocked y got pplz pull me loh, he pull so hard loh... stupid lil boy, so idiot man.. i so sad ar, i like e donkey beri much loh, den i onli hang it on my hp guess since last wk or when nia loh, so fast jiu leave me le.. sad ar, all bcuz of the lil boy lah, pull so hard, den make the hook lose... his mama neber teached him izzit, anyhow pull pplz things... so shit ar... hmm, guess today was e first n guess it will b the last time, i hang ard wib them after my decision of leaving them... i actually dun feel like being wib them de loh, i realli feel weird n funny to b wib them now... mayb it's juz all my fault... well, even though i hates being alone n though i hate loneliness, but actually after today being wib u all once again, i actually realised tat i would prefer to b alone, although i'll feel lonely when i'm alone, compared to b wib u all... cuz i juz dunno how 2 say it... i juz dun1 to b wib u guys again... u might tink tat i'm petty or wad, but i'm juz not gonna care, as this is my decision n a decision which i hab make, n told myself not to change my mind anymore, n i'm sure wib my decision.. mayb u all see the neoprint n today de me, u all might think i'm ok le, or i'm e me in the past again or we hab gone to b like the past again.. but actually it's not... somehow, juz dun feel like being wib u all, juz dun feel like tokin to u all, tat's y i din really tok today to u all... juz dun feel like knowin anything bout u all... so tat's y even if u all changed hp i also dun show my concern abt it or askin any qns regarding it... i'm sorry we will neber b able to b like the past ever again... we can neber b back to the past again... i dun want to hab e feelin which i used to hab when i'm wib u guys last time, ever agin, i dun want to risk being wib u guys again n hab tat feelins which i hab had again.. even if u guys assured me tat i wont feel tat way or things wont b like tat way again, i'd still not risk being wib u guys again.. my mind is set, n my decision is made... dis is my decision n i'm beri sure abt it...
