[1st wk of term 3]
well it's been kinda long since i last blogged.. cuz, i hab started to control myself not allowin myself to come online, only able to on weekends... so now i'm here to blog..
well..was not feelin beri gd the past few days.. feelin damn sad n depressed, due to many things.. but fer now, gettin better le.. thanx fer everyone's concern over e past few days..
mon... 27/6
well... erm first day of term 3, my mood was so bad, so horrible... sighz.. well, cant remember wad has kinda happened.. but noe tat there's some changes in timetable.. pe lesson was changed to thurs... well.. basically whole timetable changed... juz noe tat i din kinda tok to anyone at all... was beri beri quiet e whole day.. realli cannot recall wad has happen...
tues..28/6..
well... after mornin assembly went back class, i down dere stone fer awhile den went fer hist lesson.. nobody noes where lesson is being conducted at.. den well, so started class late, was habin lessons in e com lab.. den after tat had eng, dunno wad we did alreadi, den arr, cant remembered.. den recess, was like ytd, din tok at all too to any of my frens.. as my mood was still kinda same as ytd.. den afetr recess, was ss mdm rohaini came in n she's kinda lose her voice alreadi, cant realli speak.. den when she speaks, we're all like kinda laughin, as her voice is soundin kinda funnie, tat even she herself was laughin too.. so the first period she tried to tell us some stuffs, den second period we self study, as she cant tok anymore, as in beri hard to speak in tat kinda voice..den was maths, did revision ws again, like durin hols.. after sch, went lot 1 wib yan,ck,pz.. accompany them to buy presents..den went hm...mood still the same as mon sia, no change.. sighz..
wed..39/6..
well.. den erm today, first four lessons no change, same as b4 e hols.. den well maths, mr tan came n asked me, wad happened to me, y he everyday see me like beri tired liddat,n wad i do, so say no ar i not tired ar..n i also said tat the me in the past has gone liao, as he say y ar i not like last time so active liddat, mayb noisy too? den he asked me y, but din told him.. don feel like tellin any1 as too many things liao.. den he asked me i neber take drugs hor, diaoz like i'll go n take drugs liddat,as if i got take liddat.. den fifth lesson mdm zhao taught oral stuffs.. den recess, went to find them too, den went fer recess.. still din kinda tok to anyone.. haiz.. mood gettin more n more bad dis days.. well, after recess, was like five continuous periods of science lessons.. well, first 2 periods afetr recess was chem... learnt new chap, rate of reaction.. den followed by 3 periods of phy as there's no assembly... go thru the hol hw,zhenghua sec 2004 prelim paper1.. den erm.. after sch.. erm went lot 1 buy something.. den erm went hm ard 5... at nite.. did hw, n wanted to study but dis few days realli cant.. tink abt many things.. n haiz.. shall not tok abt it further..
thurs.. 30/6..
well, today mood's slightly better than past few days.. dunno y.. had pe today n we went to measure height n weight den went back to class.. cher showed us the movie called supersize me.. wah got 1 part see liao diaoz man, disgusting.. =x c liao i also want vomit sia.. hahz
den well, recess, the same like everyday loh, but today i tok abit lah.. juz 1 or 2 words i guess.. den after sch, stayed back to do my d&t, stayed till like 5.45pm liddat.. den reached hm ard 6.. nth much to tok bout.. din tink so much tat's all.. mood's gettin slightly better..
fri..1/7...
well, today... erm mood's a tiny bit better than ytd's.. den erm today mornin assembly was damn long n borin.. beri tired today sia.. den well, only left a few mins fer 1st lesson when go back to class, was supposed to b poa, but mdm poh changed to teach cme instead.. hahaz.. nobody was kinda listenin.. i'm almost gonna slp.. so tired today wonder y.. den erm, maths, nth much, cher juz taught us something on graphs.. den eng, did was fer 2 whole periods, while cher conduct a trail oral, den erm, ss nth much, tok abit bout new chap.. den recess, like usual loh.. den after recess, was phy, went back class cher haben cum, so like beri borin in class, so went outside class went to the watercooler dere starin blankly n daydream.. den cher was kinda late hur, den i so sianz, i walked over to angel class juz beside my class, den down there call tissue paper, which is callin her, as her class relief teacher mah, den i beri bo liao mah, den who noes i got a scare frm cher... diaoz.. she came liao i dunno sia, still down there tissue paper.. den i heard somebody call me, den turned my head n look saw cher arriving, den say wad y am i loiterin ard.. diaoz.. scare me sia.. den wah, she down there smilin somemore sia.. gave me a shock sia.. tell her, she ask me y, i do kui xin shi izzit, tat's y shocked.. lolx.. den lesson, went thru the zhenghua sec paper 2.. den was given kranji sec paper 1 & 2.. den after sch, i was like rottin ard, nth to do.. waitin fer time to pass.. so ended up playin wib the drinks stall de lil gal called wad shamita de.. so cute sia her.. den 3pm went to do my d&t den 6+ den stop.. n ah ma accompany me walked to my void deck.. haiz.. then liddat loh nth much.. sighz.. mood's now like those unstable kind.. mixture of feelings again? sighz.. i dunno..
thanx to everyone who showed their concern towards me the past few days, when i'm kinda in a beri sad n depressed mood.. thanx a lot.. dont worry i'm better now.. really thanx n appreciated it.. hopefully, the cheerful me will b back again, but i tink it's most likely not goin to b... it's gone fer gd le, n vanished frm my life le.. sighz.. though mood's bit better, but still kinda unhappy n sad too.. sighz.. how? how? how? mon is hol, am i goin to miss sch or am i not?? =p seriously speakin sch realli sux, i realli hate sch now, n hate everything infact.. everything is juz so sux dis yr..
some things juz wont turn out to be the way in which u hope it'll be like or expect it to be like..
some problems juz couldn't be solved at all, some would need a lot of time to solve it..
i'm so troubled n confused now.. haiz..
shld i or shld i not?
i'm sick n tired of everything.. sick n tired of my life? tink so..
memories left behind..
