[sighz..]
haiz... holidaes r endin in 1 day's time... sighz.. i dont wish to return back to sch.. sighz.. but cannot loh, still muz go de loh... sianz... dunno y, tis yr e holidaes seems to b shorter, n time seems to pass faster than e past.. y neh? everything seems to happened n end so quickly.. it juz seems as though i had juz blinked my eyes, n now june is cumin to an end now, n july is arrivin,in 5 days time?
i juz seems to dislike n hate this yr, yr 2005.. i simply hab no idea as to y is dis so... mayb, it's bcuz dis yr passes so quickly, or rather is bcuz i hab found myself changin to bcum another person le, a person who's neber goin to b like e past, no longer smiling so much like before le..
haiz, i hab really find myself changing a lot dis yr... bcum really diff as wad i am in e past.. both gd n bad.. gd is like dis yr, term 2, i realli put in effort to study, studied beri hard fer e mye.. n bad is, i am no longer smiling tat often le, no longer smiling tat much like wad i used to in e past... i am no longer, e crazy n hyperactive gal which my frens or other pplz used to saw wad i'm used to b le... i am now becomin beri beri beri pessimistic, habin lesser n lesser confidence in myself which seems like i'm habin totally zero or rather negative confidence in myself... i am also more n more negative, always tinkin so damn negatively, bcumin more n more indecisive, bcumin more n more blur n i tink i'm bcumin more n more stupid... ahh.. so, now in dis yr 2005, i saw so many bad points in myself, n zero gd points in myself... haiz.. so actually i'm such a "bad" person... sighz.. wad's happenin??? y am i bcumin like dis??
sighz... n i hab really really bcum beri diff dis yr, not longing fer sch holidaes to end, n sch to start again...unlike e past, i would wished n hope tat time pass quickly, n holidaes to end quickly, so tat sch will start again soon, n would love to go back to sch... but now, dis yr, i simply doesn't hab tat kinda feelin anymore.. i now, dunno e reason y, tat i'm hating sch n also sch holidaes... i simply hate n dislike both sch n holidaes.. i juz hate it.. i dunno e reason as to y is dis so... simply no idea.. n dis yr, i simply hate myself, hate a lot of things, mayb even hate my life? i dunno... haiz, so i realli realli hate yr 2005... it sux... haiz, i juz dont wish time to pass so quickly now.. could time slow down a bit?? time realli flies, n time realli dont wait fer us...
sighz.. in 1 days time, hols will b over, sch will start... my hols hw haben completed... tink i will go rush finish my eng n phy hw, mayb juz leave ss out fer e time being? tink i'll do my ss on mon..sighz.. 2005 is a stupid yr, i hate it, it sux...
*could some1 juz slow down e time for me?*
* i dont wish time to pass so quickly*
*unhappy*
memories left behind..
