well.. today same like ytd, went back to sch fer maths lesson... den after tat, jiu went hm... den came hm, bath, n well was bored so went to doodle on my fullscap pad, went to scribble n draw on the cardboard of the fullscap n e front of it too.. after tat, jiu came online le... haiz.. sianz.. i'm so bored rite now.. haiz, n my frens haben even told me wad time r we gonna meet later loh, arghh, den how wld i noe wad time to go n meet them and at where loh.. grrr.. y they so wad 1... haiz.. dunno loh, haiz, mayb later the trip dere, i might feel so damn bored n mayb left out? haiz, dunno loh, it seems like no matter which grp of frens i'm being wib, i'm often being left out 1 loh, by em... i juz hate tat kinda feeling loh.. haiz.. mayb i'm being left out bcuz of myself, mayb is bcuz i'm not a gd fren to hab or mayb bcuz i am beri irritating, or am i beri sianz, blur, pesimistic n wadever negative things tat u can tink abt barhx.. mayb it's bcuz of all dis dat's y barhx.. haiz.. forget it loh, if really tat's the case, den i shall solved it, or mayb if it's not , i shall try to learn to be by urself being alone n not gonna mingle n mixed ard wib frens anymore barhx.. dunno loh.. haiz.. goin to bbq later in e evening gonna stay overnite..
