well, juz now almost update finish le den com suddenly hanged, so now reupdate.. haiz.. well, mornin was raining heavily, so dad sent me to sch... den well, eng lesson gotten 2 sets of hol hw, n get back to see our letter writing... den maths did nth, mr tan tell stories, den poa, haiz, din do anything mdm poh juz give us our temp results slip to check n haiz i hab done beri badly dis term, n flunk a lot of subs, haiz, i dun understand y things always turns out dis way, when u tried ur beri best, n work beri hard fer it, but e result of it is always not wad u want n expect.. den well, after lookin at my own results i cried, i noe i shldnt dwell on it anymore liao, wad is impt now is chi o's haiz, but i juz cant helped it, i hab been tinkin so much bout it dis 2 wks.. haiz, guess i hab really got to do something bout it sia.. den mdm poh came n asked me wad course i wanna take in poly told her thrice b4 she heard it... diaoz sia... den she asked me got tat course ar,which i say i wanna take de loh, lame loh she if dun hab wo na li hui jiang wo yao take tat course... so diaoz loh.. den asked me wad's e requirement fer tat course ar, den i say dunno she say i shld go search bout it wad, so told her forget le, cuz i earlier dis yr, i checked le but now cant remember le.. den was phy, did graph plotting.. den recess, hy n ck went down, me n pris din go down, i dun feel like goin down loh, cuz no mood n no appetite loh, so was standin at e corridor dere loh, erm ate my chocos... den chi lesson, cher din cum, went back to my own class put bag, den stay in dere awhile, den went to 4/9 den went to 4/7 sit sit, tok to joy, joanna, n my laogong(4/6 ster aka wu gui) n also tok to hy, cuz her cher also neber cum but 4/7 cher got cum.. den well, afetr chi went back class packed back went fer assembly, e prize presentation so long n boring sia, make me want zZz sia... den went to eat lunch after sch, went to do d&t after tat, wib mj, to do a bit of my practical.. den ard 4.45++ went to take bus to lot 1, mj went hm, i went to walk ard lot 1 den went hm.. reached hm, bathed, ate dinner, den went downstairs bkshop to photocopy stuffs wib my er jie, den came online... well, on my way back hm frm sch, on e bus, was tinkin bout lots of things loh.. sometimes, i realli wonder, whether do i hab true frens not loh, cuz well, i dunno how 2 say loh.. but sometimes i tink my frens are juz all pretending de loh, haiz, mayb i'm not realli their frens frm their view, but to me, they r my frens.. haiz, well, sometimes, i am troubled, or hab problems, n need someone to tok to to lend me a listening ear, my frens most of e times, they r not dere when i needed them.. n well, most of e times when i'm sad, those pplz who cheered me up n make me smile n laugh, r not my best frens but instead they r juz normal frens of mine.. haiz, now i'm wondering whether izzit really tat whenfrens r being spilt up into diff class, their friendship bond gets weaker n weaker n mayb juz vanished liddat? i really dunno, n i hope dis wont happen to me... haiz, mayb realli my frens arent really wad i see tat they r, but juz tat they r juz pretending to b like dis, infront of me? i dunno, mayb everyone ard me r liddat, i really dun hab any idea, n if really tat's so, i dunno wad's e reason behind it, mayb it's tat i'm beri annoying, irritating, or anything else which is bad n makes pplz to b like tis infront of me, pretending? can any1 tells me? haiz.. well, now i wonder, whether dis grp of my best frens r trustable, whether i can trust them to keep my secrets? i noe, now i'm tinkin dis way, but everytime, i tend to trust pplz ard me too easily, even those whom i don really noe em tat well de.. haiz, i dunno, but i juz noe tat, i don tink i hab any true frens, n tat when i need someone to tok to, to lend me a listening ear, a person in which i can trust to share my problems wib, nobody will b dere fer me... mayb, i juz a nobody in dis world, where no one cares whether i'm alive or whether i'm dead.. haiz.. i'm juz so depressed n sad bout my results rite now, n tinkin a lot abt my results n bout frens? i dunno, mayb 1 day which may b arriving in a few days time or so, i might juz be gone n vanished frm dis world, who noes n who cares? e ans is nobody will noe n nobody will care n b concerned bout it..
