well, it's has been 3 days, since i last blogged.. haiz.. was actually tryin to study fer my chi o's e past few days, well n only beri lil things did went into my head, n well, being too stressed up doesnt helps.. in e past, i hardly study hard fer my chi, juz simply browse thru e shouce, n tat's juz wad i do n dis few days, i hab been mugging fer it, practicing writing e words n so on n i cant actually believe wad i did e past few days or wks, well, mayb cuz dis time round it's o lvl exam, n so mayb tat's well, i'm actually being so 'guai' to go n really studied fer my chi, n i really hope dis me, will continue, to study hard like this fer all e other subs like wad i did e past few days, i hope dis me will neber disappear frm now on.. well on fri, had chi lessons all day, n also gotten back my report bk, was habin kind of a mixed feelings, which makes me feels like i'm numbed or wad tat i seems to b like feeling nth bout gettin my report bk n somehow like tat.. well, i was habin a mixture of sad,depressed, relieved n happy? i really dunno wad my feelin is deep within me, n i really hate dis kind of a feelin n i hab been somehow like dis fer weeks or so which i dun even noe.. well, feelin sad n depressed cuz of such lousy n bad results, fer doin so badly fer dis mye? feelin happy n relieved fer not gettin last position in class, which i tot i would b after gettin back all my mye papers? i really dunno n i'm really confused n scared.. haiz.. after sch, hung ard in sch fer quite awhile, being alone as my frens all hab lessons, was being alone until ard 3 i tink, when i actually saw chukeng cumin down, so hang ard wib her, felt like going up to 5th floor n throw stones, which we (me,ck,hy) i tink hab done b4 when we were sec 2? cant remember much.. but ended up din went up, cuz we're bth lazy hur, den accompany her go find cher, den saw pris, went lot 1 wib her, had a chat, den walk ard den went hm.. sat, erm, nth much.. juz studying.. at nite, went to jp fer dinner wib my parents.. sun, afternoon, was mugging, well, nth much.. at nite, went bp fer dinner wib family, came hm, continue study a bit, but nth much goes in.. today(mon), reached sch ard 7+ n paper starts at 8.30.. den well paper 1 quite ok, tot got nth to write fer letter writing, ended up writing a lot, den compo also.. was writing till my hand hurts like siao, manage to finished writing in time,juz nice.. well, hahaz,i guessed correctly wad will cum out fer e newspaper report sia,hahaz.. den paper 2 quite ok loh, compre was a bit hard lah, e rest was quite ok loh.. after paper ate in sch, den hy n pz cum my hse wib me, put my chi stuffs away n went to jp wib em.. shopped ard, den went back to lot 1 den went hm ard 5+.. reached hm 5.30+ liao.. haiz, den my dad came hm, was askin me how was e paper n i said so so n he kept askin me was it easy n diff, but i dunno which 1 it is loh.. haiz, well n my da jie said to me last nite, askin me not to lao kui, muz get A as she last time gotten A1 fer it.. oh my, haiz.. dis mornin b4 goin into e examination hall was alreadi beri nervous n stressed tat i gotten a tummyache sia.. haiz, but after a while in e examination, everything turns out ok, not tat stressed n nervous le.. haiz, dunno y recently i'm tinkin so much loh, tinkin bout so much stuffs.. find tat no one actually understands me very well loh, n so sometimes some things there arent pplz i can share it wib, as dey dun understands me at all haiz n so sometimes even if i'm nt really feelin happy, i hab to put up a false smile, even when i'm at hm sometimes.. there's simply no 1 i can actually share my sorrwos n my thoughts n everything wib mayb wad i can only do, is juz keep everything to myself, bottled it up? i simply dunno n i'm always habin mixed emotions mixed feelings n i hate it..
