today 1st lesson was eng, did e summary thingy n den hab a period of maths did half of our test on loci, den was erm 2 periods of poa, den followed by a period of phy, learnt abt resistance... den was recess, went together wib pris, huiyan n chukeng... den after recess was 2 periods of chi, was asked to read e newspaper.. den was 3 continuous periods of chem.. well, was given back the quiz we done on mon, hahaz got full marks wee.. well after tat was given time to revise fer e class test later, so was memorising stuffs.. den when gotten the test paper, my brain went blank, cant remember most of the things, was quite panic, after a while felt kinda slpy, den well, was asked to hand up our papers, n cher was like markin some of the papers, n after marking fer a minute or so, she suddenly shouted called my name den i was ard the teacher's table there mah, n seh asked me i din studied fer e test izzit.. well told her i actually memorised e formula n din memorise e equation, dotz n she sort of sounds like scolding me loh.. n say tat erm even if she din gib us e xtra time to study also e same loh, den say tat she din want to see this happen again.. haiz.. y only i get scolded leh? there r also quite a few ppl who also din study n dunno how 2 do.. haiz but y they din get scolded... haiz, anywayz nvm, get scolded oso let me go n reflect... haiz.. den after sch, went fer phy make up lesson, din understand the formula which hab the roll de, was finding it kinda complicated.. haiz.. so after we were being dismissed at 3+... asked teacher to explain, esther,xinying,eve n cat were there too.. but i seems abit blur today cant understand, beri gong.. haiz.. so after tat left me n ster den we leaving e ava liao wib ms lai ster left first so left me, so tell cher i still don understand, n she asked me whether i want her to explain again to me now or i go back rest first cuz mayb too much things on my mind now so cant understand den find her another day.. but i decided to ask her teach me again now, n so well she taught me using another method which in e end, appeared to b actually quite easy.. haiz, tink myself is so stupid, such a easy thing to understand i took such a long time to understand, haiz really stupid.. haiz.. luckily ms lai has lots of patience, if my sis sure already teach me till vomit blood le.. haiz.. so went fer choir after tat.. was kinda bored.. haiz.. recently think tat cca has taken way too much time already loh, n tat everytime after choir, go hm bathed eat dinner liao den wanna do hw will feel beri tired n exhausted loh.. haiz.. hab been feeling moody dis days, haiz dun quite noe y, haiz keep feelin me myself is beri stupid.. mayb i'm sufferin frm depression, or mayb cuz i'm too stressed le barhx.. haiz can some1 help me, by counselling me hao ma? haiz.. moodless..
